toreadjohnslife

toreadjohnslife @ 2006-04-04T20:18:00

2006-04-05T00:20:33Z

last week in ny BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
me wanna stay longer

toreadjohnslife @ 2006-03-27T21:51:00

2006-03-28T02:55:39Z

sooo we basically packed ourselves up and are now staying with my mom and stuff. it took a lot to jsut tell robbie to come with us too. saturday night we all went out to the city and it was soo much fun like i miss the big nyc a lot! nothing compares to nyc :] puhahahaa. partied the night away, i was drunk crazy so yeah my mom ended upo laughing at me when she saw me stumbling in and robbie and craig helped me in. i love my mom and my boys :]
yesterday went out to ihop wich i havent done in soo long with the guys and my mom and it was great :] see i love family muhahaa. then we kicked it at my pad and chizziled for the rest.
went shopping errands with craig and robbie today. roosevelt is soo lame. havent been there in so long. i feel so like "WOW ITS SOO DIFFERENT" bc ive been in boston with all those stupid bostonians haha. oh what to do
tonight im going to josh where alex is meeting uop with us there and we are going to some girls party out in suffolk. but im wodneing who the fuckl we know there. but then again alex got the hook up haha
PAYCE
x0xsarax0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2006-03-07T19:53:00

2006-03-08T00:54:10Z

why is school sucking? i cant wait till spring break whore. im not even sure if like we're going to go to my moms and hang with everyone or just go somewhere all together. like eitehr florida or california to meet up with jared and jess you know? we got a bit time tothink bout it but yeaah i wanna go to ca for jared. so that might be it but im not sure . woot. im out.

toreadjohnslife @ 2006-02-23T18:38:00

2006-02-23T23:38:39Z

I wish they wouldnt fight so much in front of me.

i love my boiii!

2006-01-31T00:32:59Z

I dont even need to worry about him not loving me the same as I love him because I know we both do and it feels good.

That something that I've been wanting for so long has found me and I'm glad he did ♥

Taken off from Marissa's ♥

2005-12-26T22:11:13Z

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? Moved to Boston and lived on my own with the boyfriend and recently with Robbie :)
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I never make any because I let it all just happen
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope
4. Did anyone close to you die? RIP John
5. What countries did you visit? none but hopefully soon!
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? more time with friends and money with a better job! yes!
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? February 11th because John died that day and I miss him so </3 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? learning to accept a friends death and still am plus living on my own 9. What was your biggest failure? letting some people down 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? heartache 11. What was the best thing you bought? my apartment 12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? Craig&hearts; 13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Johns Parents at one time 14. Where did most of your money go? Friends, me, craig, bills argh 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? My own place and college! 16. What song will always remind you of 2005? ghost of you by mcr &hearts; 17. Compared to this time last year, are you i. happier or sadder? sadder ii. thinner or fatter? same as always iii. richer or poorer? poorer 18. What do you wish you'd done more of? saved my mula and spent more times with friends 19. What do you wish you'd done less of? hating on people i dont even know 20. How will you be spending Christmas? I already spent it with my parents and craig&robbie 22. Did you fall in love in 2005? Always been in love 23. How many one-night stands? ew none 24. What was your favorite TV program? laguna beach and nip/tuck 25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? emmm not "hate" 26. What was the best book you read? nada 27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Aiden 28. What did you want and get? My own place and BU 29. What was your favourite film of this year? 40 year old Virgin 31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Partied like woah and I turned eighteen 32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? john still alive 33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? me :) 34. What kept you sane? craig and robbie and mama! 35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? nobody 36. What political issue stirred you the most? nothing bc i didnt care 37. Who did you miss? john and my friends i dont get to see lots 38. Who was the best new person you met? they are all cool 39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005. live life to the fullest, because tomorrow is not promised 40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. ahhhh idk i cant think! January 1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? nope 2.Who kissed you at midnight? craig &hearts; 3. Does it snow where you live? yes 4. Do you like hot chocolate? yes, yes i do 5. Have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop? nope February 1. Who was your valentine in 2005? craigh&hearts; 2. What did your valentine get you? candy, flowers, cards, sex, the whole shebang! 3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? ahahah yes March 1. Are you Irish? a quarter of it 2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? chya! 3.What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2005? drank drank drank, all day long from the morning to the pm! April 1. Do you like the rain? nope 2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? yesss 3. Did you get tons of candy on easter? haha no who does? May 1. What's your favorite kind of flower? lilys 3. Do you like the spring? yessss 4. Finish the phrase: April showers bring may flowers, what do may flowers bring? um lambs? 5. What would you think of as a spring color? pastel nigga June 1. What year do you graduate from school? highschool 2005, college not till idk 08/09? 2. Did you go on any vacations last June? nope July 1. What did you do on the 4th of July? partied 3. Did you go on any vacations during this month? just going back home and upstate for the boys August 1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer? hungout with friends 2. What was your favorite summer memory of '05? being with my friends 3. Did you go swimming a lot in the summer? nah 4. Did you go to the beach a lot? yes September 1. Did you attend school/college in '05? yes 2. Who is/was your favorite teacher? blahhhh professor krame 3. Do you like fall better than summer? nooooo October 1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? mehh hXc girl ahahaha 2. what's your favorite candy? sour patches 3. what did you dress up like this year? craigs girlfriend November 1. Whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving? mamas and aunties 2. Do you love stuffing? aw yes 3. What are you thankful for? family, friends, lover &hearts; life December 1. Do you celebrate Christmas? yes 2. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe? yes 3. What do you want this year for Christmas? i got it all now 4. What's the best present you ever got for Christmas? mmmmm 5. Do you like cold weather? ew no

happy holidays bitches

2005-12-08T02:07:43Z

its too cold her now! me no like it! whatever. in a few weeks im off to ny for the fam and friends. money for the ppl i love is going down the drain but its worth it :]

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-11-29T20:29:00

2005-11-30T01:32:39Z

thanksgiving break was real good. jess and jared where in ny and stayed with me, craig, and robbie at my mommas. then partied/dinner on wednesday. LOTS OF PIZZA. then dinner with my mom, craig, robbie, jess, and jared. do you know how amazing that feeling was? having the ppl you love there at thanksgiving? spending a holiday with the ppl u love. if john was there id just be in nirvana. or something more amazing than words. having my mom and the man i love and my bestest friends there! AMASING!! we had our laughs, tears, and staring contests. then the day after we left for boston and stuff. then later on said goodbye to the cali nigs aha. they want us 3 to go to ca in december since jade and alliey are going. we arent gonna go bc ny is where its at! need to do hw now. payce <3

x0xsaracx0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-11-06T20:45:00

2005-11-07T01:46:55Z

i love living with this kid!

thankgod for him changing his ways I SITLL LOVE HIM!!!

I love living with mybebe tooo!! CRAIGANIGGA!

Party over here this weekend. Pictures on allieys so go THERE!

x0xsarax0x

we're family now ♥

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-10-28T17:56:00

2005-10-28T21:59:13Z

i think everyone is going back to the island for this weekend. i know me and craig are and gonna stay with my mommy! i miss that lil lady so much! i miss her! cant wait to see her! :] alex is holding a crunk ass halloween partay tomorrow so definitly going for that. i think shiz said something about him and josh going too but im not sure and robbie isnt sure if hes gonna do. i mean i told him too because he hasnt been home in so long but he insists on staying at our place while we're away. i dont know, i just dont want him to feel lonely this weekend idk. i love that kiddo. me and craig are leaving after this post so peace out home ppl.

cant wait to see jewwels andeveryone!!!

HALLOWEEN BITCHES!!
x

x0xsarax0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-10-20T15:36:00

2005-10-20T19:38:51Z

havent updated and ive been way too busy for things.
talked with jared a while ago and hes coming for like thanksgiving! i wanted him to come for like xmas but he wants to be with fam and friends and i totally understand :] i just love him! Marissas birthday is on saturday and i got her something sexi hehehe :] I love that woman! Oh yeah so when Jared comes with Jess in november we're going on a double date. FIRST THING! They'll be staying with us at our place holla!!

♥ x0xsarax0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-08-22T17:43:00

2005-08-23T00:46:06Z

Oh I bought my books for school today and holy shit it's like 7974398673496798967 much money! Btw the way I'm in Boston right now just until thursday. everything is pretty much in its place. SCHOOL IS STARTING SOON. Our apartemnt is sexi. I miss my mom, I swear my mom should move in with us. That would be insane dude. I think Jade and Dan should just hit it off. He gave her sparks and she gave him too so why not!! AHHHHHHH!! Anyway I miss some people and then I dont. Tonight party? I th ink so.

x0xsarax0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-08-09T17:44:00

2005-08-10T00:46:13Z

fuck i got to pee so badly its not even funny.
i love craig so much!
its going to be a year almost woot!
spent a week in buffalo with everyone
we were there to party it up with the two retards who thouhg moving up there would be fun
LOSERS!
a lot more poeple are staying there
but me and craig wanted to leave early so its cool
bc now everyone is there and no one is calling us to hangout
so now we canbe all alone..
♥ CRAIG!!

x0xsarax0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-07-21T12:20:00

2005-07-21T16:22:21Z

ewwwwwwwwww its hot! im so bored. i think me and the guys are going to the mall today. do some stupid shopping or just making the girls jealous. yeah pretty much. alright im bored. and i never update bc im always with my lovely craiger♥ oh yeah, beach pictures on allieys so go look if you're her friend :] lastnight was josh and shiz's away party, going to miss you boys! visit soon! they leave today btw. :[ i love my friends!

x0xsarax0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-06-19T15:35:00

2005-06-19T19:38:33Z

So everyone is celebrating fathers day right now. Craig offered me to go with him to his house and celebrate but I was like nah, you spend more time with me than with him so go alone. I don't celebrate this day. Why? Because my father walked out on me and my mom so whatever. I don't have a father. Me and Robbie don't have dads! Well his dad shows up once a year or 5 years but still.. so me and him are going to Applebees and then go smoke. Pretty much that, then later tonight Craig is coming over :] I miss him already haha. Adios amigos.

x0xsarax0x

moopy year

2005-06-19T04:37:25Z

Hungout with everyone tonight. Not much to say. I love Craig, so tired. Heres some from tonight.

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-06-18T13:33:00

2005-06-18T17:36:05Z

AHH SUMMMER!! FUCK FRIEND POSTS.. no one comments anym,ore an it makes me sad!! june is fucking crzzy!!! heres a few. and theres sume more on marissas

I LOVE CRAIG!!

i love these losers!

calling the skank

bigger loser

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-03-24T15:52:00

2005-03-24T20:54:30Z

hehehhehehehe no school. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyesserirree yeah made no sense but who the fuckcares?
anyway nothnig really to talk about. anyway craig is aweosme and thanks to alliey for this pic as she snuck into my house lastnight hehe. theres a fancier one on the info page ♥

x0xsaRAx0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-03-20T21:20:00

2005-03-21T02:24:46Z

new week and thankgod it is! i couldnt take that slow week before. so fucking gay. anyway. had a lovely awesome sunday with my craigernater. and yeah ♥ slept all morning through the afternoon. woke up got lunch since it was like 3pm hehe and then came back home and slept some more. im so happy with him, he makes me feel so amazing :] i love this feeling :] then he had to go because he promised dee and the boys that he'd hangout with them tonight and i didnt mind bc i have him all to myself everyday and its true we never see our other friends so yeah. then i slept some more, showered, did my nails. then randy came over and chilled and then left. i have a fucking essay to write t onight but i wont do it till later. i am a lazy sack of shit. but you love me :] my saint pattys day was amazing. everyone just decided not to go to school so we all partied at robbies from like 7 in the morning till god knows when. i left around 9 because my mom wanted me home before 10. good times with everyone good times :] I think next weekend or sometime soon, when its not so fucking shitty. me and craig and i think alicia and matt are going to the beach. at night! yay! some loving there :] since ya know tomorrow is the first day of spring but the weather is going to be pretty shitty so this is going to suck. but anyway theres always summer nights :] wee

x0xsarax0x

8t59w87trgh

2005-03-14T00:08:20Z

everyones at marissas right now. i was gonna go but craig was too lazy to get up ad go so we stayed at my house doing absoultely nothing.. like a married couple who gets bored with eachother and stays home. the husband watching tvand laughing at stupid commercials and me, the wife who does nothing bt sleep. yeah thats about it. but we're hapy so dont take this the wrong way :] friday nite we celebrated and instead of being upset or whatever we made it like a goodway to remember him and ev erything, everything turend out sooo good :] even thugh a few people werent able to come it was still good. wish they could of been there :[ saturday me and craig went to glen clove to go see ashley and brian. ahhhh we missed the msooo mcuh!! i wasnt worried that ashley still kinda likes craig from what i heard but i dont care, shes still cool and i trust her and him and hes mine so yeah :] mmhmm.. school tomorrow. so fuckig gay.

x0xsarax0

TONIGHT IS ALL FOR JOHN

2005-03-11T23:44:03Z

before anything goes down tonight, its been a month since john has left and i was completely miserable :[ tonight we're all going to drink it up for him. WE FUCKING LOVE YOU JOHN AND MISS YOU!!!

x0xsarax0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-03-05T10:33:00

2005-03-05T15:34:05Z

woke up super early just to go with craig to our little place ♥
where we can go be little kids and cry about our sorrows.
where we can be alone and no one else matters but us.
♥

x0xsarax0x

FUCK THE WEATHER CHANNEL!

2005-03-01T22:31:49Z

they completely lied to everyone about having a huge ass snow storm. stupid motherfuckers! i wake up rushing to the window and it looks no different than the night before! i checked to see if any closings were going down and only a 2 hour delay! fucking insane i hated it so much!! so whatever. I called up Craig and bitched to him about this two hour delay shit and he came and picked me up and when we got to my school i toldhim I rellay didnt want to go to school and so he kidnapped me and went back to his house and slept till now :] My mom wasnt home anyway so she didnt get the phonecall. They left a voice message on my answering machine!!! Fucking idiots, oh well I delete that motehrfucker. Fucking detention too :]

So im pretty much looking foward to this weekend me and brit and few other girls are going into the city :] how super duper is that?! lemme tell ya, super duper fuck yeah! hehe. Then I get to come home to craig and fall asleep with him :] sounds like a good night.. indeed.

So school tomorrow... fuck that.

x0xsarax0x

toreadjohnslife @ 2005-02-26T14:01:00

2005-02-26T19:07:59Z

yo where the fuck is this fucker? craig was supposed to pick me up around 1! now it's 2:02, so therefore he is an hour and two minutes late. and this is great, i picked a scab on my upper lip and its bleeding now and if its still bleeding by the time craig gets here, he will get a bloody kiss because he deserves it. anyway, i dont even know what me and craig are supposed to be doing. getting lunch, drive around and then what? well whatever we always wing it and end up coming home or my house from an awesome night.

i was talking to brittney earlier today and we havent hungout in so long that i feel bad. like every since me and craig met we have been inseperable and she made it clear to me that im always with him and even if i hangout with her and everyone else im friends with, hes always there. its true, craig is always there. i mean i understand they want to hangout with me alone soemtimes.. and idk. maybe i will do that ya know. let craig hangout with his friends and I hangout with my friends. and then come home with craig and spend the rest of the night sleeping. sounds good, problem solved :]

ok so the pooper is here, hes gonna get a mouthful outta me right now.
♥

x0xsarax0x

its not easy to know..

2005-02-22T02:38:00Z

so, its good to know that i am smiling again. but its not so easy for me to remeber that my best friend isnt here anymore. i know hes in good hands now but i just miss john so much. like its getting harder not picking me fone up and calling him up. i really miss him and every night i cry myself to sleep and craig is there wiping my fears away. i thankgod i have my friends and craigs to help me out. they both mean so much to me ♥ i wish it was so easy to go back and slip inside those photographs.

i was with jen and ian today hanging out and what not, then i got really upset just because and so i told craig to pick me up and so we're here at my house just being togheter. my moms out with her friends so whatever. i feel like writing because i feel like crap. craig is making popcorn and watching tv. i love how it feels like we're a married couple in a house together. thats what we practicallly are.

x0xsarax0x